i'd rather not speak

i feel like there should be a galtisky quiz or at least something i should be doing. today for dinner i had cookies, ice cream, and salad. in that order :) i love reading, i think i should go do that before i go to sleep. i'm tired and i have short hair. i sometimes wish i had no hair. re-back up. i'm getting less headaches, which is a good thing. or at least i'm noticing them less. either way, is good. yes, is good. i think my car will last until the end of school. maybe if i just keep believing that it will be true. i'm going to ft. lauderdale next weekend. i think i told everyone that already. i'm just trying to update everyone on everything but i'm bad at remembering who i told what to. i think i decided that i am a pessimist. or at best a realist. probably a realist. at times a cynic. but i'm totally cool with it. and that's all that matters, right? i mean, as long as you're content in what you are, there shouldn't be a problem. because it doesn't bother me, it shouldn't bother the people around me, and i just can't force myself to be an optimist because someone thinks i should be. so therefore, i am a happy pessimist. so are we gonna see that movie next weekend? or the weekend after that?

chris,

eat dirt, kick rocks, give blood, vomit soup, etc.

we are in doc foster's room. you are reviewing for a quiz. i am posting on the blog because i just turned in two 100 point assignments and don't feel like doing anything else today. i am sort of tired. good thing no one needs to pee anymore. adios.

Its so hard when you're shallow as a shower

So I gave Jeremy a good hard talking to today. I think I got through to him. Although boys are so dumb you never know. I hope you don't mind that I professed your crush for you Lea, but its for his own good. Its not like he didn't have a hint. To add to my ever growing hypocrisy I chastise a boy being used while I look for someone new to use myself. Oh goodness... I guess what it comes down to is that its okay to be used if you want to be cuz...well...thats not really being used at all. You can't use a user. But I think that Jeremy really wants someone for real. At least thats what he told me before all this mess. We must find a new situation to conveniently bring you together. Meanwhile I look for my next victim and avoid Pat's mom like the plague.

Is there a checklist for life?

So, pretty much, I haven't blogged in ages and I feel that I need to do some sort of life inventory that spans beyond some sort of strange venn diagram/pie chart. Today was good. I decided to drop my bi-weekly government class and take on the beast of flvs, which I was actually looking forward to avoiding in my high school career. I am currently indulging myself in Twilight and I think Edward should be back in about 40 some pages. Thank God, I was getting tired of stupid Jacob. I got denied for giving blood for the first time today. I guess even superman gets low iron sometimes...when she is sick and has had about 3 cups of tea and 2 cups of coffee within the last 24 hours. Also today I got my acceptance letter from USF, a full 3 days after finishing my application. So, now I can write my name on the board. The whole being accepted thing only reminds me of the fact that I have only one college that I even want to go to and that I have no direction in my life. I seriously have no clue what I want to do later on. Except that I want to be married to someone that I really love. That is mostly all I want, and pretty much the only thing I can clearly see myself doing at this point. OK, so I am trying to inventory here...what is my life? Um, my room hasn't been clean in a really long long long time and I am slightly tired of it, but not really enough to do anything. I am skipping 2nd and 3rd periods tomorrow since I am sick and my whole body is achy. Today my mom said I could have Chinese to celebrate the USF thing, but then the Chinese place was closed so she suggested an alternative like Publix chicken. And I seriously considered the chicken for a minute or two, but then the Chinese food won. Afterall, he will be at school tomorrow and Chinese food is a pretty rare treat. Nonetheless, there were several ways I could have made and excuse to hang out with him today and I didn't. That is a bit strange for me, but I suppose I am just getting used to it all now. Oh, I guess I should put in this inventory that my 10 year long crush is officially over, as is my crush on Max. Those are two important things. Also important is the fact that I am finally beginning to realize that I am a senior and I can skip school all I want, as long as I keep my grades up, and it will totally be cool. And given the tendency of Geography to be insanely boring and dumb-freshman-ridden, I think I will be skipping more. I think that I want to live at the coast for the last month of summer and go to Busch Gardens the weekend after next.

all of my love,
K.D.